Description

"I don't build engines instead of friends.
I build them to stay myself—when the whole world demands that I disappear."

This is not a victim's diary. It's a survivor's manifesto.
Simon's Journal is an honest, technically precise, and poetically piercing account by an autistic engineer on how to live in a world designed for the "normal."

There are no inspirational clichés here about "overcoming" autism. Only truth:
— about how rituals prevent collapse,
— how "maybe" destroys trust,
— how sex without a clear "yes" becomes violence,
— how schoolyard bullying leaves scars on the nervous system,
— and how love is possible—but only if it begins with the question: "May I?"

Simon doesn't ask you to "understand" him. He demands one thing:
respect for his right to be himself—without a mask, without apologies, without compromising his nervous system.

Every entry is like a turbine part: calibrated, essential, load-bearing.
Every sentence is both a distress signal and a beacon:
"You're not alone. You're not broken. You have the right to silence."

For autistic readers—it's a mirror.
For neurotypicals—it's a guide to respect.
For everyone else—it's a reminder:
humanity isn't measured by how much you resemble others,
but by how fiercely you remain yourself—even when the world demands otherwise.

"My 'yes' is real only if I say it myself—
not if I echo yours."
— Simon K.